On the three year anniversary of when Adam and I brought Harold home, we said good-bye to our Harold. While I know logically that it was the thing that we had to do, he was getting worse with each day, it was the hardest thing that I have had to do. I kept telling Adam that we could turn around and go home and that somehow everything would be okay. Luckily for me, Adam is my rock and stood strong for me until we got to the vets office.
I won't describe our last moments with him at the vets for a few reasons, one being that it would be too hard for me to write down right now and because I don't want for that to be the way that we or anyone else remembers him. All I will say is that the people at the vets office were amazing and that he died peacefully in our arms, which is exactly how we wanted it.
Walking into our home afterwards was extremely hard - that is when it hit me and all I wanted was for my Harold back. His food bowl, bed and toys were exactly as he left them and all they needed was for Harold to come walking through the door. I know that each day will get easier, but I miss him with every fiber of my being as they say.
I just remind myself that we had a great last week with him. Adam's family was in town for Christmas and they helped us to spoil him rotten. He got multiple cheeseburgers this week along with turkey, ham, stuffing, peanut butter, cookies and anything else that he would eat. He stopped eating his food about a week ago so whenever he would eat something, we just went with it and gave him as much of it as he wanted. We were also able to take him to the dog park yesterday and for a short walk along a trail in the woods for him to sniff around. He had small bursts of energy yesterday which was awesome - we were able to see small glimpses of the Harold that we will remember most.
We started reminiscing last night about our time with him. It helped to confirm our decision as we realized more and more how different Harold was now to the dog that we had for three years. Adam was able to find the petfinder's page that we found three years ago that introduced us to Harold. We also found the blog that his foster dad kept up about Harold while trying to find a forever home. We checked it religiously until he was officially ours. Adam also found the blog post from Dogtopia when Harold was the dog of the week. We were very proud dog parents that week!
We will continue to reminisce and are creating a Harold scrapbook type book for us to remember our favorite stories of him so that we don't ever forget. He was such a large part of our lives for three years and it is hard to image not waking up with him laying on my legs tomorrow morning or Adam taking him out for a walk every morning. I am just grateful that I was able to be with him until the end and was able to thank him for helping me through some difficult times and for always making me happy. He will be forever missed.
While we found Harold through petfinder's, we adopted him through an organization called Homeward Trails. They do great work and helped to get Harold out of a high-kill shelter so that we could have him in our lives. I know that we are in the holiday season and things are tight for everyone, if you could give even $5 in Harold's name to Homeward Trails, we would greatly appreciate it. We hope that the money can be put towards helping another family find a dog like Harold.